I noticed something rather peculiar two days ago while I was out with Jihan in town. I met someone who actually begged us to listen to his cries for donation of $2 for several pens that he was trying to sell to people. He claimed that he was an ex-convict and he is having difficulties in getting a proper job. He said that this is one of his ways to get some money.
Ironically, I was shown only a picture profile of himself and a pathetic paragraph of an explanation of his sufferings. Now, Jihan looked at me. For an instance, I am caught up to decide on whether shall we just give him our money or ignore him totally. Then, my senses came about and I realized that he did not have the yellow ribbon project tied to it. So we declined.
How can I even trust that man? I know, $2 dollars is just a miserable amount but I did not want to encourage corn artists to abuse the system either. We felt bad about it but without the yellow ribbon project tied to it, I will forever be cautious with these people.
The Yellow Ribbon Project is currently one of the best methods of encouraging ex-convicts to improve their lives and most importantly provide them with skills to find jobs in the future. Whatever it is, i will say my Kudos to the people who help make this project a meaningful one for them.
Cheers.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Monday, June 25, 2007
Back To What I Love Most!
Well, I am back to the same school life that I had done during my contract teaching experience last year again. I am currently posted to the same school for my Teaching Assistantship Programme for five weeks.
The feeling is absolutely amazing especially when I managed to meet up with my old mentors who had guided me in the past. The welcoming was too extravagant for me especially when the principle mentioned during the contact time that I am someone that most teachers here know very well before. There were a lot of cheering and clapping in the Lecture Theatre from the teachers when my name was mentioned. At that instant, I felt a sudden surge of awkwardness and shyness but was very proud to realize that this is the kind of career that I had wanted to seek for almost all my life.
Now why is that so? Of course, I am still a amateur when it comes to teaching in school. I am still learning to become a full-fledged teacher and it will take at least a year before I complete my course. The thing is when I reached my school yesterday for the first time when school reopened,I was reminded of the innocent faces of students once more. To be able to deliver your knowledge to students successfully is a complete satisfaction and success for me. In fact, sometimes, I can feel that I am being blessed everyday with this profession. That kind of feeling was never obtained during my years as a Network Engineer beforehand.
Just a few funny experiences I had just now. I was observing this class and was looking at their work when I notice some funny spelt words. Of course, they are still weak in their spelling as they are from the lower primary. Here they are, try figure out the real words - "consided, camouflush, predetors, depreff, chrisalis,metamofosis" Oh my!
I smiled but I couldn't help myself from pointing to those words to them and asked them to recheck their spelling again. Somehow, it tickled me to know that i am so eager to do this quickly but I cannot do much as I am under training or as I am known as a cadet teacher by my principle. My teaching methods are quite limited as compared during my contract teacher days.
Well, I was given an assignment to teach life cycle concepts next week to students. It will be fun. I am so enthusiastic about it already. Teaching is so fun! Trust me.
Just a few funny experiences I had just now. I was observing this class and was looking at their work when I notice some funny spelt words. Of course, they are still weak in their spelling as they are from the lower primary. Here they are, try figure out the real words - "consided, camouflush, predetors, depreff, chrisalis,metamofosis" Oh my!
I smiled but I couldn't help myself from pointing to those words to them and asked them to recheck their spelling again. Somehow, it tickled me to know that i am so eager to do this quickly but I cannot do much as I am under training or as I am known as a cadet teacher by my principle. My teaching methods are quite limited as compared during my contract teacher days.
Well, I was given an assignment to teach life cycle concepts next week to students. It will be fun. I am so enthusiastic about it already. Teaching is so fun! Trust me.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Poor Customer Service
I had an interesting experience these past few weeks during my holidays. Of course, despite having a super long break from studying, I have decided to stay in Singapore instead of going on tour to other countries.
Being me of course, shopping is what I love to do sometimes especially when my piggy bank is full. To shop in the Great Singapore Sale is a must. Let me see, I bought two long sleeve shirts at Celio and TopMan, one short sleeve shirt at Gap, a couple of shorts and lots of tshirts at Isetan and countless other stuffs that I cannot even remember buying at which location.
It seems fun but I have always believed in Customer Service when I shop for something. For instance, if you happen to be in a shop and u found some items that you are currently interested in, you most probably look for the sales personnel and inquire more about the items before purchasing it. This is where I or rather all of us will expect to have from the Sales Person, to provide good customer service. Apparently not all Sales Personnel are capable of doing that.
I had this irritating experience two days ago at Far East Plaza, Singapore. I will not mention the shop name but it is located at second floor. I was browsing through some of the long sleeve shirts there with my classmates, Salleh and Fazlee, when the shop sales man, came along and touted me rigorously. He was saying that all the clothes there consists of many different sizes repeatedly and keep asking which shirt do I want to guess without even letting me choose. The best part was when he decided to inform me whether I was aware of the cost of the shirt. I looked at him with anger. What does he mean by that? I ask him how much does this shirt cost and he replied that it costs around $89. Appalled by the cost, I wanted to laugh at him. I thought that the shirts there are expensive and are costing around $200 per shirt. I was angered further when I realized that the Sales Personnel did not even ask other customers. Immediately, I realized that I have been a victim of discrimination again.
Now, was it my colour that let him think that I do not have money to buy clothes? Or was it my appearance in jeans and t shirt that let him think otherwise? I went out of the shop of course without buying anything. However, I left an impression in the shop by showing them my credit cards. For once, I felt like Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman. Of course, this is the male version. :-)
Has the world gone insanely obsessive with money and materials? Do people respect others by looking at how they wear? Imagine if I was in my executive clothes, I am confident that I will not face such horrendous treatment. Or if I am of a different colour perhaps? Maybe I am making assumptions.
Whatever it is, if any shop sales personnel give me poor customer service in the near future, I will definitely walk away and not buy it at all although the items are very appealing to my eyes and I wanted it badly. Good Customer Service will win my spending in the near future. Too bad, some of them didnt realize that.
Being me of course, shopping is what I love to do sometimes especially when my piggy bank is full. To shop in the Great Singapore Sale is a must. Let me see, I bought two long sleeve shirts at Celio and TopMan, one short sleeve shirt at Gap, a couple of shorts and lots of tshirts at Isetan and countless other stuffs that I cannot even remember buying at which location.
It seems fun but I have always believed in Customer Service when I shop for something. For instance, if you happen to be in a shop and u found some items that you are currently interested in, you most probably look for the sales personnel and inquire more about the items before purchasing it. This is where I or rather all of us will expect to have from the Sales Person, to provide good customer service. Apparently not all Sales Personnel are capable of doing that.
I had this irritating experience two days ago at Far East Plaza, Singapore. I will not mention the shop name but it is located at second floor. I was browsing through some of the long sleeve shirts there with my classmates, Salleh and Fazlee, when the shop sales man, came along and touted me rigorously. He was saying that all the clothes there consists of many different sizes repeatedly and keep asking which shirt do I want to guess without even letting me choose. The best part was when he decided to inform me whether I was aware of the cost of the shirt. I looked at him with anger. What does he mean by that? I ask him how much does this shirt cost and he replied that it costs around $89. Appalled by the cost, I wanted to laugh at him. I thought that the shirts there are expensive and are costing around $200 per shirt. I was angered further when I realized that the Sales Personnel did not even ask other customers. Immediately, I realized that I have been a victim of discrimination again.
Now, was it my colour that let him think that I do not have money to buy clothes? Or was it my appearance in jeans and t shirt that let him think otherwise? I went out of the shop of course without buying anything. However, I left an impression in the shop by showing them my credit cards. For once, I felt like Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman. Of course, this is the male version. :-)
Has the world gone insanely obsessive with money and materials? Do people respect others by looking at how they wear? Imagine if I was in my executive clothes, I am confident that I will not face such horrendous treatment. Or if I am of a different colour perhaps? Maybe I am making assumptions.
Whatever it is, if any shop sales personnel give me poor customer service in the near future, I will definitely walk away and not buy it at all although the items are very appealing to my eyes and I wanted it badly. Good Customer Service will win my spending in the near future. Too bad, some of them didnt realize that.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
The Summary Of Max Muchacho
I have to apologize for the long disappearance from blogging. It is not that I refuse to write anymore but I am really busy with my life. What could have been so interesting in my life that had made me ignore my blogging? Well, here it goes.
I was busy studying between March and April 2007. I have four examinations to prepare for and there was even a day whereby I had to take two exams. Not only that, the day before the two exams commenced, I had to rush to my best friend's wedding in Kuala Lumpur, more precisely in Sekinchang, Selangor. When the exam ended on 14th April 2007, I had such a great time distressing myself with Singapore's fun and entertainment nightlife and food. I frequent Movida, a club in ST James, many times that I am beginning to realize that my passion for Salsa and Merengue will never wither away when time passes by.
I did not go traveling to other country despite of the two months break that I am currently rejoicing my holidays by just relaxing and doing things to my heart's wishes. I only visited to Malaysia's Genting Highlands for a retreat with Frodo for a short time of casino gambling and food. Yes, Frodo and myself have settled our disputes before but that will be another day of blogging for me. After our short retreat, we went to another friend's wedding in Johore Bahru. Yeah, all went well, but there are some issues there whereby I will tell you one day by blogging it separately.
After that, I decided not to travel for the rest of my holiday. Well, its not to the fact that I had enough traveling but I just want to save up some money and try out something new in my homeland. I have never stopped ever since. For instance, Nazir, a new muchacho of mine, had been giving ideas to me on how to make your holiday's worthwhile. We tried cycling by the beach, watched all the latest movies, make plans with our other classmates to go karaoke, dining and shopping. Trust me, I did not feel bored at all.
Even till this day, I have something to do for the rest of the day. For example, later, I am going to do my routine gym exercising and I thought of going to Hard Rock Cafe for Kumar's comedy performances in the night. I have exactly 18 days left before my Teaching Assistantship program begins. Oh darn, two and a half months break sure fly fast with time.
I was busy studying between March and April 2007. I have four examinations to prepare for and there was even a day whereby I had to take two exams. Not only that, the day before the two exams commenced, I had to rush to my best friend's wedding in Kuala Lumpur, more precisely in Sekinchang, Selangor. When the exam ended on 14th April 2007, I had such a great time distressing myself with Singapore's fun and entertainment nightlife and food. I frequent Movida, a club in ST James, many times that I am beginning to realize that my passion for Salsa and Merengue will never wither away when time passes by.
I did not go traveling to other country despite of the two months break that I am currently rejoicing my holidays by just relaxing and doing things to my heart's wishes. I only visited to Malaysia's Genting Highlands for a retreat with Frodo for a short time of casino gambling and food. Yes, Frodo and myself have settled our disputes before but that will be another day of blogging for me. After our short retreat, we went to another friend's wedding in Johore Bahru. Yeah, all went well, but there are some issues there whereby I will tell you one day by blogging it separately.
After that, I decided not to travel for the rest of my holiday. Well, its not to the fact that I had enough traveling but I just want to save up some money and try out something new in my homeland. I have never stopped ever since. For instance, Nazir, a new muchacho of mine, had been giving ideas to me on how to make your holiday's worthwhile. We tried cycling by the beach, watched all the latest movies, make plans with our other classmates to go karaoke, dining and shopping. Trust me, I did not feel bored at all.
Even till this day, I have something to do for the rest of the day. For example, later, I am going to do my routine gym exercising and I thought of going to Hard Rock Cafe for Kumar's comedy performances in the night. I have exactly 18 days left before my Teaching Assistantship program begins. Oh darn, two and a half months break sure fly fast with time.
Monday, April 16, 2007
Comments Of Immaturity
What do you say to people if they are not good looking? Moreover, what if someone who has a typical look according to his or her race? What if the person is fat? What if the person is uneducated? Do we have the right to comment and insult them?
A very subjective question but of course the moral values derived from answering these questions are most probably pointing to the word. " NO." Who likes to be insulted anyway? Some people are just too insensitive towards many people's feelings. I reckon these people are merely individuals who are just too confident with themselves and they are thinking too much of their own self that they fail to know that they are completely arrogant about it.
A simple gesture at saying to some people that they are stupid or fat or saying that you are too typical in your thinking as a race such as "too Malay or too Indian or too Chinese" are just abhorrent. Does it really matter? Now I have not even come to the part whereby looks of certain individuals are scrutinized for the sole purpose to think that these observers are better than the people they are zooming at. So what if the man is bald? So what if the lady has pimples? So what if the man has a tattoo on his body? So what if the man is haggardly dressed?
To me, if you are continuously commenting at others unnecessarily, you are just feeling insecure about themselves and perhaps currently having an unhappy life. In this modern world of democracy or so to speak, no one has the privileges to condemn or insult anyone as the fingers pointing back to himself or herself are far more detrimental to his or her character. I will always give a simple smile to these people. They are just pathetic and immature. A sad example of some people who just refuses to accept reality that there are other people better than them. I hope these people will realize their bad characters one day but in anyways, they will surely be exposed to others who will talk badly about themselves and the cycle goes on..Sigh...
A very subjective question but of course the moral values derived from answering these questions are most probably pointing to the word. " NO." Who likes to be insulted anyway? Some people are just too insensitive towards many people's feelings. I reckon these people are merely individuals who are just too confident with themselves and they are thinking too much of their own self that they fail to know that they are completely arrogant about it.
A simple gesture at saying to some people that they are stupid or fat or saying that you are too typical in your thinking as a race such as "too Malay or too Indian or too Chinese" are just abhorrent. Does it really matter? Now I have not even come to the part whereby looks of certain individuals are scrutinized for the sole purpose to think that these observers are better than the people they are zooming at. So what if the man is bald? So what if the lady has pimples? So what if the man has a tattoo on his body? So what if the man is haggardly dressed?
To me, if you are continuously commenting at others unnecessarily, you are just feeling insecure about themselves and perhaps currently having an unhappy life. In this modern world of democracy or so to speak, no one has the privileges to condemn or insult anyone as the fingers pointing back to himself or herself are far more detrimental to his or her character. I will always give a simple smile to these people. They are just pathetic and immature. A sad example of some people who just refuses to accept reality that there are other people better than them. I hope these people will realize their bad characters one day but in anyways, they will surely be exposed to others who will talk badly about themselves and the cycle goes on..Sigh...
Friday, April 13, 2007
What a question!
Have you ever been asked about certain things and then, ended up in receiving certain doubts back about the topic? This is the funny thing about some people who apparently irritates me especially knowing that she just couldn't accept the answers well.
I was studying for my biology lesson the other day, when my friend, received a call from a lady classmate. She wanted to know some definitions of a certain topic and within ten minutes, they are on the verge of strangling each other. Why? This is because, she could not accept the answer or explanation given by him on the topic itself.
Apparently, I thought I can ignore the fact that there were arguing continuously. Suddenly, my friend passed me the hand phone and requested me to answer her queries. Without a doubt, I ended up arguing with her on the same topic too. I finally managed to convince her on the answer right about 20 minutes of discussion. I was appalled by the time I concluded the conversation with her.
The question that I am puzzled with such people is that, they simply do not understand the moral etiquettes of respecting the person whom they asked. Now, my principle is simple. If you do not believe someone in anything, why in the first place, would you ask the person a question? Isn't this mind boggling? It is like I am puzzled why dolphins are regarded as mammals and I questioned my Science Teacher on this fact and refuse to accept her teachings. Hmm, doesn't that sound familiar? My friends will surely remember this.
OK, let me briefly tell you on an incident that happened to me during my contract teaching. I was questioned by a parent on a particular topic on Science. She was not satisfied with her daughter's mistake in one of the Science questions. The question was as follows. Is dolphins regarded as a mammal or a fish? Of course, the answer to this,will be Mammals. Dolphins have hairs, breathe through their lungs and its female can produce milk to feed its young and many more. She was not satisfied that her daughter did not answer this question correctly and tried to pull a quick one in this. She even asked me to question the scientist on this fact! Amazing how some people can go about in wanting to get what they hoped to achieve.
In the end, I told her that it is not my jurisdiction to change a scientific theory. I also informed her that this was mentioned repeatedly in the syllabus and in many science encyclopedias. Oh well, she accepted it gradually after an hour of conversation. Interesting right?
That is the problem with some people. There are always stubborn in accepting realities or answers to certain questions easily. There are just too darn narrow minded. Oh my.
I was studying for my biology lesson the other day, when my friend, received a call from a lady classmate. She wanted to know some definitions of a certain topic and within ten minutes, they are on the verge of strangling each other. Why? This is because, she could not accept the answer or explanation given by him on the topic itself.
Apparently, I thought I can ignore the fact that there were arguing continuously. Suddenly, my friend passed me the hand phone and requested me to answer her queries. Without a doubt, I ended up arguing with her on the same topic too. I finally managed to convince her on the answer right about 20 minutes of discussion. I was appalled by the time I concluded the conversation with her.
The question that I am puzzled with such people is that, they simply do not understand the moral etiquettes of respecting the person whom they asked. Now, my principle is simple. If you do not believe someone in anything, why in the first place, would you ask the person a question? Isn't this mind boggling? It is like I am puzzled why dolphins are regarded as mammals and I questioned my Science Teacher on this fact and refuse to accept her teachings. Hmm, doesn't that sound familiar? My friends will surely remember this.
OK, let me briefly tell you on an incident that happened to me during my contract teaching. I was questioned by a parent on a particular topic on Science. She was not satisfied with her daughter's mistake in one of the Science questions. The question was as follows. Is dolphins regarded as a mammal or a fish? Of course, the answer to this,will be Mammals. Dolphins have hairs, breathe through their lungs and its female can produce milk to feed its young and many more. She was not satisfied that her daughter did not answer this question correctly and tried to pull a quick one in this. She even asked me to question the scientist on this fact! Amazing how some people can go about in wanting to get what they hoped to achieve.
In the end, I told her that it is not my jurisdiction to change a scientific theory. I also informed her that this was mentioned repeatedly in the syllabus and in many science encyclopedias. Oh well, she accepted it gradually after an hour of conversation. Interesting right?
That is the problem with some people. There are always stubborn in accepting realities or answers to certain questions easily. There are just too darn narrow minded. Oh my.
Friday, March 30, 2007
Movida Craze and A Special Message
I cannot believe it. I have not been blogging for more than 30 days. Perhaps it was the every increasing pressure from my assignments and tests that had prevented me from writing. I guess it is. However, do not be disgruntled. Nothing particularly bad happened to me lately. What did happen was a month full of entertainment and making new friends in life.
I have been to this new club known as Movida, ST James Powerhouse. It is located opposite Vivo City, the newest shopping center in Singapore. What I like about this place is that it is the only club in Singapore that has managed to play different genres of music from all around the world, in particularly Salsa and Merengue songs, Arabic, Jamaican, Reggae and many more. I was superbly impressed by the deejay with his ever talent and skills in choosing the appropriate songs. I was even more enchanted by the ever engaging resident band, La Ranura. The band’s musical styles include latin, chachacha, cumbia, salsa, merengue, son, folk etc, reggae, rock, pop, blues, afrosamba rhythm, brazilian songs, marchinas and more. What can be better than that? I love it! Therefore, you can imagine myself, there always every weekend. The Music is good for my soul.
What fascinates me further is the ever great friendship that I have discovered for this past one month. I have created closed friends. One of them,Nazir, has been following to Movida many times and I can say that I have converted him to be a Salsa and Merengue Fan. What matter most here is not about my influence, rather, it is the hope that he can recover quickly from his recent break up with his girlfriend. I have met people that have shocked me in their ways of life but I have also come across people who wanted to be my friend. What better compliment can I have when I received an sms message from someone who states that I am special. Oh my, did i just impress that person so much? I did not mean to do it deliberately but I do hope I can be inspirational to many people in my life. I really do. I guess that is my destiny in life.
As the years go by, I gained many enriching experiences that have made me to who I am today. I hope I do not have to make enemies anymore to anyone. I rather do my part in this world, to make someone, find a reason to live when all things fail to them. I guess I am destined to do that.
Now, the question is. Who is my guardian angel? I have yet to know that. Stay Tuned.
I have been to this new club known as Movida, ST James Powerhouse. It is located opposite Vivo City, the newest shopping center in Singapore. What I like about this place is that it is the only club in Singapore that has managed to play different genres of music from all around the world, in particularly Salsa and Merengue songs, Arabic, Jamaican, Reggae and many more. I was superbly impressed by the deejay with his ever talent and skills in choosing the appropriate songs. I was even more enchanted by the ever engaging resident band, La Ranura. The band’s musical styles include latin, chachacha, cumbia, salsa, merengue, son, folk etc, reggae, rock, pop, blues, afrosamba rhythm, brazilian songs, marchinas and more. What can be better than that? I love it! Therefore, you can imagine myself, there always every weekend. The Music is good for my soul.
What fascinates me further is the ever great friendship that I have discovered for this past one month. I have created closed friends. One of them,Nazir, has been following to Movida many times and I can say that I have converted him to be a Salsa and Merengue Fan. What matter most here is not about my influence, rather, it is the hope that he can recover quickly from his recent break up with his girlfriend. I have met people that have shocked me in their ways of life but I have also come across people who wanted to be my friend. What better compliment can I have when I received an sms message from someone who states that I am special. Oh my, did i just impress that person so much? I did not mean to do it deliberately but I do hope I can be inspirational to many people in my life. I really do. I guess that is my destiny in life.
As the years go by, I gained many enriching experiences that have made me to who I am today. I hope I do not have to make enemies anymore to anyone. I rather do my part in this world, to make someone, find a reason to live when all things fail to them. I guess I am destined to do that.
Now, the question is. Who is my guardian angel? I have yet to know that. Stay Tuned.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
The One?
Hmm.. This is interesting. I have taken quite a long thought on this as I had just discussed this topic with SPG a couple of days ago online. Apparently, she was kind of telling me off that I should not just jump into conclusion that Annie, my ex girlfriend, was the one for me as I only knew her for 4 months.
Now, everybody has their opinion on this. To me, SPG is just having some issues in commitment. In other words, she is afraid of committing herself into marital relationship or other than that she has not found the kind of boyfriend that has yet wanted to marry her sincerely. For me, I have yet to find the right one although every new girlfriend, I met, I will treat her as "the one". I see it as nothing at all. I will always treat my new girlfriends, as the right one, though I am never sure she will there with me forever. No one is really sure though. All of these are just fate.
I have never believed in long term relationships that will end in nothing than just a long term "affair" with no marriage vows taken. It is not only a waste of time and money but it is also emotionally disturbing to oneself. The problem with people when they met the right one, they will always try their best to make it happen. The problem with me is not myself though. It is my destiny to fulfill certain things or criteria in life before I can jump start into another life. What is more important is that, I am happy always. I am surrounded with best of friends around. I am now courting a new girlfriend. I am enjoying life as how other bachelors are doing and it seems that I happen to know that some of my colleagues who are married, longed to have my kind of life now as they are so pre-occupied with their newborns and wife. Can you believe that? It is one of the confession of my classmate and he told me how he regretted not to enjoy life thoroughly before marrying his wife. He feels very sad about it. I feel sad for him.
Anyway, SPG meant well with her remarks that came out of a sudden. I can understand her pain now as she will be admitted to a hospital next week for a surgery. Who will not be moody or upset about it, right? My prayers for her always. Hey, put it this way, only SPG has the right to knock my brains out with some opinions. It is not ghastly but it is her right as she has been my friend for the last 18 years. Excellent and cheers.
Now, everybody has their opinion on this. To me, SPG is just having some issues in commitment. In other words, she is afraid of committing herself into marital relationship or other than that she has not found the kind of boyfriend that has yet wanted to marry her sincerely. For me, I have yet to find the right one although every new girlfriend, I met, I will treat her as "the one". I see it as nothing at all. I will always treat my new girlfriends, as the right one, though I am never sure she will there with me forever. No one is really sure though. All of these are just fate.
I have never believed in long term relationships that will end in nothing than just a long term "affair" with no marriage vows taken. It is not only a waste of time and money but it is also emotionally disturbing to oneself. The problem with people when they met the right one, they will always try their best to make it happen. The problem with me is not myself though. It is my destiny to fulfill certain things or criteria in life before I can jump start into another life. What is more important is that, I am happy always. I am surrounded with best of friends around. I am now courting a new girlfriend. I am enjoying life as how other bachelors are doing and it seems that I happen to know that some of my colleagues who are married, longed to have my kind of life now as they are so pre-occupied with their newborns and wife. Can you believe that? It is one of the confession of my classmate and he told me how he regretted not to enjoy life thoroughly before marrying his wife. He feels very sad about it. I feel sad for him.
Anyway, SPG meant well with her remarks that came out of a sudden. I can understand her pain now as she will be admitted to a hospital next week for a surgery. Who will not be moody or upset about it, right? My prayers for her always. Hey, put it this way, only SPG has the right to knock my brains out with some opinions. It is not ghastly but it is her right as she has been my friend for the last 18 years. Excellent and cheers.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Are Those Remarks Unintentional?
I was amazed at how some people can simply blurt out remarks that are directed personally to one's race. I remembered having this conversation with a student mate that day and i did not know how to react towards that.
Apparently, she was browsing through my pictures that I had over the internet and she saw me in this Traditional Malay costume. Her comments are strange. She mentioned to me that I had a "Malay Look". Perhaps this is just a normal comment made to others but it simply makes me think whether she meant it otherwise. Well, for sure, she has an Indian blood in her. I respect that indeed but having to hear comments just annoys me. What does she mean by saying that I have a Malay look? I am pretty proud about my Malay origins and what if I say she has a typical Indian look? Does that sound racists? Does that really matter if one mention about the racial origins when comes to personal facial comments?
Well, I am sure she didnt mean harm to it. It might mean that I fit in well when comes to wearing the Malay Traditional Costume. I may look photogenic in some extent. Oh well, I shall take that comment as something positive. As long as it does not sound racist to me because she is a good friend of mine, I am pretty contented. Like I used to blog before, there's not glory in discrimination one's race. It's simply a backward mentality.
Apparently, she was browsing through my pictures that I had over the internet and she saw me in this Traditional Malay costume. Her comments are strange. She mentioned to me that I had a "Malay Look". Perhaps this is just a normal comment made to others but it simply makes me think whether she meant it otherwise. Well, for sure, she has an Indian blood in her. I respect that indeed but having to hear comments just annoys me. What does she mean by saying that I have a Malay look? I am pretty proud about my Malay origins and what if I say she has a typical Indian look? Does that sound racists? Does that really matter if one mention about the racial origins when comes to personal facial comments?
Well, I am sure she didnt mean harm to it. It might mean that I fit in well when comes to wearing the Malay Traditional Costume. I may look photogenic in some extent. Oh well, I shall take that comment as something positive. As long as it does not sound racist to me because she is a good friend of mine, I am pretty contented. Like I used to blog before, there's not glory in discrimination one's race. It's simply a backward mentality.
Friday, February 16, 2007
The Urge to Watch
At this point, I really feel like watching this movie. It somehow reminds me of something...Hmmm...Anyway, yesterday..I watched The Ghost Rider..It is a good show, one of those shows taken out from a comic magazine. I enjoyed it but my mind cannot get off the idea of wanting to watch this show....It's really going to be fun thinking about the relevance of this movie to mine. I wonder how will it end? I like the line..." Have you ever made a really big mistake?" As for me, hell YES..BIG TIME
Thursday, February 15, 2007
The Two Quarrels, The Betrayed Brotherhood and The Junkie...
It has been a long time since I started blogging and there are reasons why I have refrained myself from doing so. Perhaps it has been the most exciting time and the most depressing time for a happy story to end. It all happened within the last three weeks of January 2007.
I know, I was just too excited when I declared my love for a new girlfriend, Annie and as mentioned in my previous blog, when two brothers found love in the same place and at the same time, it is all too good to be true. Life is full of mysteries and suspense. Its just how u picked it up and throw it out one at a time and picked something new out from time to time. I had two quarrels with Annie during that period and that experiences were one of the most extraordinary, yet shocking and depressing feeling I ever had.
It all happened when I began to realize about the one sided love affair that I had with her. Of course, in the beginning I thought, it was real love. However I was fooled with the implications of her true self when it comes to reality. The first quarrel started when I refused meeting up with her on a Friday night. This was because we had met the day before and on that Friday itself, she was caught up with her company's barbecue. It does not make sense for her to meet up with me on that night as we are spending the whole Saturday and Sunday together for some occasions. In fact, on Sunday, I was supposed to accompany her to a wedding invitation before meeting her parents. It was such a splendid plan until we fought over the issue of not meeting up on Friday. Now, there are reasons why this happened. It may seem to you that Annie, is so possesively keen in going out with me regularly. Perhaps, this was just the criterias of every new relationsip but it does come with a catch...she is interested in doing other things.
Things? Well let me be more explicit. She is interested in making out with me as to overcome her past. Yes, her past...I mean, sex is normal between couples. There are those who refuse to have it till marriage. There are those who are active in it and there are those who are sex addicts. However, when you met someone whom you have presumably thought to be your life companion, sex was never in the mind. It is purely, love and passion for each other. Sex may come in a romantic experience later in due time. However, this was not the case for Annie.
She insisted to meet up with me to have sex with me on a regular basis. Hey, I am a Man. Which man doesn't want sex?? I see no problem in that but before I can commune that thought with her into some real intriguing actions, I began to find out her real truth. She is still in love with her ex-boyfriend. That leaves me to only one thing....am I the scapegoat? Am I the rebound love? Am I the replacement? Am I the figure for her to make use of? Is this whole bloody relationship worth the shot? What if when I had sex with her and she started to splurge her ex boyfriend's name? Oh that is going to smack my ego down deep to the underground.
The first quarrel ended up with her disappointment with me. The reason that I can't meet up with her is that, I have to study and prepare for my assignments which are due. Plus, I was thinking that since I am going to meet up with her on the next day, meeting up with her on Friday was just a waste of time, especially when she had to go to a company's barbecue and work the next day. What's the rush? If I can wait for sex, why couldn't she? I know why, she is thinking of her ex boyfriend and wanted to do sex with me to forget about him. This is horrendous and preposterous. To my dismay, on that Friday's night, she switched off her handphone and left me behind with a phone message that she will be out alone and somewhere. As a boyfriend, whom is already confused about this whole darn relationship, became worried indeed and of course panic soon after! I cannot reach her phone. I cannot call her but luckily, Frodo was with me on that night and I thought all will be well.
No, the trauma does not end there. Frodo is too hooked up with his girlfriend that he left me to rot in confusion and depression by abandoning me. Wow. I became paranoid. I cannot call Annie, and Frodo, my blood brother dumped me in my time of need. I scolded Frodo for being a dumpster. Leaving me behind without myself knowing what to do. I felt betrayed by friendship. In fact, I was so shocked to know that I was actually going to be dumped by Annie and I am already being dumped by my blood brother, Frodo. Now, how will I react to this?
I felt that Frodo had just thrown away my friendship for a lady whom he had just met? I have no issue in him meeting up with his girlfriend but hey, he blurted out to me before he left me that he had failed me in his friendship. I was appalled by that remark. What was he trying to do? Had he been changed by a girl? Oh my, I had never felt so dissapointed with Frodo. Perhaps, he is still a young guy and he has a lot to learn in life. Well, that is his life now..
Of course, all these happened three weeks ago. Frodo and myself seems to be broken away in friendship. I can see that he is weak in handling his girlfriend. Most of us will take it in a way that he is being controlled by his girlfriend. I am not sure but Annie did return my call later in the night and after telling her what happened between Frodo and myself, she apologized. This still seems too good to be true. We were fine on Saturday. After her work, she insisted to pick me up from the gymnasium to send me home and that meet up change my love for her to fear. Maybe I am wrong but I saw something that until now shocked me. I was told that if a lady wears some black magic charms on her looks, her real face can only be shown when her feet was revealed. She was wearing shorts and I saw her feet when I entered her car. Then. suddenly, I saw a skeleton image on her face and I was so frightened towards the journey home. She was caressing me and touching me all around while she was driving the car but I was too scared to even look at her face. In my mind, I keep asking myself, "what did I bring myself into this time?"
After sending me home and upon her arrival at her home, I rang her and we started to have our second quarrel. I began to question her real weight and her love for me. She began to admit to me that she cannot lie to me and I went beserk. What? All these times when I was with her, I was cheated?
She slammed down the phone on me and I was furious. I avoided her calls and sms soon after and all ended up with her dumping me. I was planning for that to happen actually.
Oh my...not another failed relationshiop. She was in love with her ex boyfriend and she is using black magic charms onto me. How can this be worsened further? Oh yeah...Frodo dumped my friendship too. 4 years of treating a friend like your own brother. God is really testing my me. All hopes went down the drain like a downpour falling to the ground. Did the life of Max Muchacho end at that time?
Apparently not. God is on my side. I managed to study and prepare for my tests and assignments. I make closer and newer friends, and Zeir, an old friend of mine, came back to my life and I managed to regain an old friendship that I thought I had lost previously. In fact, Zeir happened to be Annie's ex-classmate and I began to find out more lies about Annie.
My classmates have been supportive of me and this is the strangest thing. People that you thought you can count on during your time of need, disappears but other new friends came by to help instead. Of course, this is just my life. It is always made up of ups and downs and the saddest thing about this is that I am so sad to make my parents know that I had failed in another attempt in relationships. That news will just blast them back to misery. I had to keep. numb about it.
I lost a girlfriend who is playing around with my feelings and I lost a closed friend whom I thought will stick to me through thick and thin. The excruciating adventure did not end there. I met a junkie friend who wants me to follow on her path to the ultimate satisfaction of trance. I was nearly brought into this until Allah helped me out. I did not feel good about doing it and surprisingly, I was saved again.
Looking at all these issues that had fallen upon me, I knew that I am blessed by Allah. I told Annie on my last sms that may God blessed her and I told Frodo on my last sms to him that he can go off on his own without my help and I avoided the junkie on her influence. All this was done without me knowing that I am being saved by God. There are blessings in disguise after all.
Of course, the next questions will be..."Can I accept Annie back in my life?" , " Will I be friends with Frodo again?" and " Will I go astray with the junkie?" or will I be a prince and marry my dream girl later in life? This is all now in God's hands. Frodo...has made his choice..Annie couldn't make up her mind to forget her ex boyfriend...I looked up in the sky and question God. In fact, I talked to God in my prayers that I cannot find my match in life. I accept his sentence on me and I will never stop in finding true love, true brotherhood and true life.....That is my destiny until the day I die...For now, I will pursue my passion...that is to Teach and to help people in education. That is the golden treasure given to me by Allah and I will honour it, sincerely.
WallahuAlam...Only Allah knows.
I know, I was just too excited when I declared my love for a new girlfriend, Annie and as mentioned in my previous blog, when two brothers found love in the same place and at the same time, it is all too good to be true. Life is full of mysteries and suspense. Its just how u picked it up and throw it out one at a time and picked something new out from time to time. I had two quarrels with Annie during that period and that experiences were one of the most extraordinary, yet shocking and depressing feeling I ever had.
It all happened when I began to realize about the one sided love affair that I had with her. Of course, in the beginning I thought, it was real love. However I was fooled with the implications of her true self when it comes to reality. The first quarrel started when I refused meeting up with her on a Friday night. This was because we had met the day before and on that Friday itself, she was caught up with her company's barbecue. It does not make sense for her to meet up with me on that night as we are spending the whole Saturday and Sunday together for some occasions. In fact, on Sunday, I was supposed to accompany her to a wedding invitation before meeting her parents. It was such a splendid plan until we fought over the issue of not meeting up on Friday. Now, there are reasons why this happened. It may seem to you that Annie, is so possesively keen in going out with me regularly. Perhaps, this was just the criterias of every new relationsip but it does come with a catch...she is interested in doing other things.
Things? Well let me be more explicit. She is interested in making out with me as to overcome her past. Yes, her past...I mean, sex is normal between couples. There are those who refuse to have it till marriage. There are those who are active in it and there are those who are sex addicts. However, when you met someone whom you have presumably thought to be your life companion, sex was never in the mind. It is purely, love and passion for each other. Sex may come in a romantic experience later in due time. However, this was not the case for Annie.
She insisted to meet up with me to have sex with me on a regular basis. Hey, I am a Man. Which man doesn't want sex?? I see no problem in that but before I can commune that thought with her into some real intriguing actions, I began to find out her real truth. She is still in love with her ex-boyfriend. That leaves me to only one thing....am I the scapegoat? Am I the rebound love? Am I the replacement? Am I the figure for her to make use of? Is this whole bloody relationship worth the shot? What if when I had sex with her and she started to splurge her ex boyfriend's name? Oh that is going to smack my ego down deep to the underground.
The first quarrel ended up with her disappointment with me. The reason that I can't meet up with her is that, I have to study and prepare for my assignments which are due. Plus, I was thinking that since I am going to meet up with her on the next day, meeting up with her on Friday was just a waste of time, especially when she had to go to a company's barbecue and work the next day. What's the rush? If I can wait for sex, why couldn't she? I know why, she is thinking of her ex boyfriend and wanted to do sex with me to forget about him. This is horrendous and preposterous. To my dismay, on that Friday's night, she switched off her handphone and left me behind with a phone message that she will be out alone and somewhere. As a boyfriend, whom is already confused about this whole darn relationship, became worried indeed and of course panic soon after! I cannot reach her phone. I cannot call her but luckily, Frodo was with me on that night and I thought all will be well.
No, the trauma does not end there. Frodo is too hooked up with his girlfriend that he left me to rot in confusion and depression by abandoning me. Wow. I became paranoid. I cannot call Annie, and Frodo, my blood brother dumped me in my time of need. I scolded Frodo for being a dumpster. Leaving me behind without myself knowing what to do. I felt betrayed by friendship. In fact, I was so shocked to know that I was actually going to be dumped by Annie and I am already being dumped by my blood brother, Frodo. Now, how will I react to this?
I felt that Frodo had just thrown away my friendship for a lady whom he had just met? I have no issue in him meeting up with his girlfriend but hey, he blurted out to me before he left me that he had failed me in his friendship. I was appalled by that remark. What was he trying to do? Had he been changed by a girl? Oh my, I had never felt so dissapointed with Frodo. Perhaps, he is still a young guy and he has a lot to learn in life. Well, that is his life now..
Of course, all these happened three weeks ago. Frodo and myself seems to be broken away in friendship. I can see that he is weak in handling his girlfriend. Most of us will take it in a way that he is being controlled by his girlfriend. I am not sure but Annie did return my call later in the night and after telling her what happened between Frodo and myself, she apologized. This still seems too good to be true. We were fine on Saturday. After her work, she insisted to pick me up from the gymnasium to send me home and that meet up change my love for her to fear. Maybe I am wrong but I saw something that until now shocked me. I was told that if a lady wears some black magic charms on her looks, her real face can only be shown when her feet was revealed. She was wearing shorts and I saw her feet when I entered her car. Then. suddenly, I saw a skeleton image on her face and I was so frightened towards the journey home. She was caressing me and touching me all around while she was driving the car but I was too scared to even look at her face. In my mind, I keep asking myself, "what did I bring myself into this time?"
After sending me home and upon her arrival at her home, I rang her and we started to have our second quarrel. I began to question her real weight and her love for me. She began to admit to me that she cannot lie to me and I went beserk. What? All these times when I was with her, I was cheated?
She slammed down the phone on me and I was furious. I avoided her calls and sms soon after and all ended up with her dumping me. I was planning for that to happen actually.
Oh my...not another failed relationshiop. She was in love with her ex boyfriend and she is using black magic charms onto me. How can this be worsened further? Oh yeah...Frodo dumped my friendship too. 4 years of treating a friend like your own brother. God is really testing my me. All hopes went down the drain like a downpour falling to the ground. Did the life of Max Muchacho end at that time?
Apparently not. God is on my side. I managed to study and prepare for my tests and assignments. I make closer and newer friends, and Zeir, an old friend of mine, came back to my life and I managed to regain an old friendship that I thought I had lost previously. In fact, Zeir happened to be Annie's ex-classmate and I began to find out more lies about Annie.
My classmates have been supportive of me and this is the strangest thing. People that you thought you can count on during your time of need, disappears but other new friends came by to help instead. Of course, this is just my life. It is always made up of ups and downs and the saddest thing about this is that I am so sad to make my parents know that I had failed in another attempt in relationships. That news will just blast them back to misery. I had to keep. numb about it.
I lost a girlfriend who is playing around with my feelings and I lost a closed friend whom I thought will stick to me through thick and thin. The excruciating adventure did not end there. I met a junkie friend who wants me to follow on her path to the ultimate satisfaction of trance. I was nearly brought into this until Allah helped me out. I did not feel good about doing it and surprisingly, I was saved again.
Looking at all these issues that had fallen upon me, I knew that I am blessed by Allah. I told Annie on my last sms that may God blessed her and I told Frodo on my last sms to him that he can go off on his own without my help and I avoided the junkie on her influence. All this was done without me knowing that I am being saved by God. There are blessings in disguise after all.
Of course, the next questions will be..."Can I accept Annie back in my life?" , " Will I be friends with Frodo again?" and " Will I go astray with the junkie?" or will I be a prince and marry my dream girl later in life? This is all now in God's hands. Frodo...has made his choice..Annie couldn't make up her mind to forget her ex boyfriend...I looked up in the sky and question God. In fact, I talked to God in my prayers that I cannot find my match in life. I accept his sentence on me and I will never stop in finding true love, true brotherhood and true life.....That is my destiny until the day I die...For now, I will pursue my passion...that is to Teach and to help people in education. That is the golden treasure given to me by Allah and I will honour it, sincerely.
WallahuAlam...Only Allah knows.
Friday, January 26, 2007
Musica...
Music, it is one of the best creation of humankind that is very sensational to everyone from generations to generations in the world. I have the passion for Music. Indeed , who does not have, right? Call me weird or strange but my kind of music is made up from countries not within this region.
I was first introduced to World Music from my best friends who are currently working in New York and London. They showed me the passion of Salsa and Merengue and for seven years, I was intrigued by the sensational steps of Salsa and Rythm. This further encouraged me on a hunt for all the best of Salsa songs from La Sanora Carusseles, Marc Anthony, Celia Cruz, Victor Manuelle, Tito Puente and many more. The beautiful beats of the percussion, saxophone and latin beats mesmerized me from then and I was further fascinated by the great combination of Salsa and Arabic songs from Gypsy King and Alabina, Cheb Mami and Yuri Buenaventura, Amr Diab, Nawal Al Zoughby, Sameera Said and many countless more.
The addiction to listening and dancing to these rythms from the Mediterranean and Latin continents have made me a better person and strong. I learnt Salsa Dances (though I am still a beginner in it) and I began to love Spanish Language and I have yet to take up some courses on it. There is one thing about the Spanish and Arab communities when it comes to entertainment, they really know how to entertain themselves exotically with their songs. I have yet to see belly dancers in Turkey and Egypt though I have seen some local renditions of it in Singapore. It is not about the perversion of looking at sexy femal dancers wriggling their belly buttons but it is about how they dance passionately to the Arabic Songs.
It will be thrilling for me, indeed.
Not forgetting, I love Salsa Movies too. I kind of having limited experiences in viewing Salsa movies. Some of the movies that I have watched are, " Dance With Me, Dirty Dancing 1 and 2" and Mambo Kings. There are superb and inspirational.
Oh well, it is funny to know that I do not understand a single word of these songs but you do not need to know the meaning of the language. It is music? The rythms and beats are the definitions of the passion.
Check out some of the best clips I love for Salsa and Arabic songs below from Youtube,
Yuri Buenaventura
La Sonoro Caruselles
Nawal Al Zoughby
Sameera Said and Cheb Mami
Salsa Salsa , Latinas and Latinos. Muchas Gracias, Ya Habibie and Ya Habibtie!
I was first introduced to World Music from my best friends who are currently working in New York and London. They showed me the passion of Salsa and Merengue and for seven years, I was intrigued by the sensational steps of Salsa and Rythm. This further encouraged me on a hunt for all the best of Salsa songs from La Sanora Carusseles, Marc Anthony, Celia Cruz, Victor Manuelle, Tito Puente and many more. The beautiful beats of the percussion, saxophone and latin beats mesmerized me from then and I was further fascinated by the great combination of Salsa and Arabic songs from Gypsy King and Alabina, Cheb Mami and Yuri Buenaventura, Amr Diab, Nawal Al Zoughby, Sameera Said and many countless more.
The addiction to listening and dancing to these rythms from the Mediterranean and Latin continents have made me a better person and strong. I learnt Salsa Dances (though I am still a beginner in it) and I began to love Spanish Language and I have yet to take up some courses on it. There is one thing about the Spanish and Arab communities when it comes to entertainment, they really know how to entertain themselves exotically with their songs. I have yet to see belly dancers in Turkey and Egypt though I have seen some local renditions of it in Singapore. It is not about the perversion of looking at sexy femal dancers wriggling their belly buttons but it is about how they dance passionately to the Arabic Songs.
It will be thrilling for me, indeed.
Not forgetting, I love Salsa Movies too. I kind of having limited experiences in viewing Salsa movies. Some of the movies that I have watched are, " Dance With Me, Dirty Dancing 1 and 2" and Mambo Kings. There are superb and inspirational.
Oh well, it is funny to know that I do not understand a single word of these songs but you do not need to know the meaning of the language. It is music? The rythms and beats are the definitions of the passion.
Check out some of the best clips I love for Salsa and Arabic songs below from Youtube,
Yuri Buenaventura
La Sonoro Caruselles
Nawal Al Zoughby
Sameera Said and Cheb Mami
Salsa Salsa , Latinas and Latinos. Muchas Gracias, Ya Habibie and Ya Habibtie!
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
I Love Annie
Oh my..I did not know that I am such a fickel minded person for all this while that when love does come by, I tend to be hysterical about it. Yes, my relationship with Annie is still new. In fact, it has only been a week and a half since we have become one. I have known her for three months now but has that made me questioned myself whether I am truly in love or not?
Ever since then, I have realized that not all relationships are supposedly to be based on love alone. To me, it is more on the other party's willingness to love me more than I do for her. Ok, what I mean here is, I may be unsure of things lately but I am confident that I have fallen for her thoroughly. I am now admitting to the whole world that I am truly in LOVE with Annie. No doubt about it. I have seen couples going through relationship for many years and love is just so strong for them to deny it. I have even a male friend whom have dated this ex-girlfriend of his for three years but all efforts went into the drain eventually. They broke off.
The problem about the word "Love" is that it always entices me to look for it more in a person. Yes, I love Annie but what I meant previously was that I did the wrong thing by comparing my young relationship with Annie to others. Well, of course, let us be honest in this. No relationships are bigger than any others. People may tend to think that I am just forcing myself to love her but no, this is a personal thing from my heart. She has been the best lady in my life caring my life always with things, no other ladies, I have known in my life, will ever do. Trust me, she is even better than my ex-fiance. I can truly and sincerely mention that always.
The question here is...how long do you need to know the person to even think of whether you are in love with him or her? Should there be a period? Should there be even an effort to know? No...it is all natural. I cannot sleep without first talking to Annie. I cannot concentrate or focus on my lessons or studying without her giving me a kiss and blessing me. I cannot pursue other things without Annie in this world. She accepted me for what I am. She adores me and do not care whether I am now underpaid since I am still a trainee. She bought me things that will be of use for me. She is losing weight for herself and me. Imagine that? A lady who loves me who is willing to do everything or even throw away everything to love me? I love her so much. Indeed. This is the one for me. She is Mrs Max. She will be sought by me always and I am praying to Allah that we will be reunited in a wedlock in future. Time will make us stronger every second.
Well, I have begun to realize that I do not need time to wonder on my true feelings of love for her. I have already felt it and I am glad I am seriously crazy with her. God has answered my challenge. That is, when I asked God on whether God can give me love from a lady. Indeed, God is the Almighty in finding the right person for me. Alhamdulilah. Praises to Allah.
Maybe it is not the right time for me to marry her yet. I still need more time to know her. However, if I were to marry anyone, it will be her. Why? The reason is...I LOVE HER.
With blessings from Allah, this will definitely end in a wedlock one day. It is a matter of time.
Ever since then, I have realized that not all relationships are supposedly to be based on love alone. To me, it is more on the other party's willingness to love me more than I do for her. Ok, what I mean here is, I may be unsure of things lately but I am confident that I have fallen for her thoroughly. I am now admitting to the whole world that I am truly in LOVE with Annie. No doubt about it. I have seen couples going through relationship for many years and love is just so strong for them to deny it. I have even a male friend whom have dated this ex-girlfriend of his for three years but all efforts went into the drain eventually. They broke off.
The problem about the word "Love" is that it always entices me to look for it more in a person. Yes, I love Annie but what I meant previously was that I did the wrong thing by comparing my young relationship with Annie to others. Well, of course, let us be honest in this. No relationships are bigger than any others. People may tend to think that I am just forcing myself to love her but no, this is a personal thing from my heart. She has been the best lady in my life caring my life always with things, no other ladies, I have known in my life, will ever do. Trust me, she is even better than my ex-fiance. I can truly and sincerely mention that always.
The question here is...how long do you need to know the person to even think of whether you are in love with him or her? Should there be a period? Should there be even an effort to know? No...it is all natural. I cannot sleep without first talking to Annie. I cannot concentrate or focus on my lessons or studying without her giving me a kiss and blessing me. I cannot pursue other things without Annie in this world. She accepted me for what I am. She adores me and do not care whether I am now underpaid since I am still a trainee. She bought me things that will be of use for me. She is losing weight for herself and me. Imagine that? A lady who loves me who is willing to do everything or even throw away everything to love me? I love her so much. Indeed. This is the one for me. She is Mrs Max. She will be sought by me always and I am praying to Allah that we will be reunited in a wedlock in future. Time will make us stronger every second.
Well, I have begun to realize that I do not need time to wonder on my true feelings of love for her. I have already felt it and I am glad I am seriously crazy with her. God has answered my challenge. That is, when I asked God on whether God can give me love from a lady. Indeed, God is the Almighty in finding the right person for me. Alhamdulilah. Praises to Allah.
Maybe it is not the right time for me to marry her yet. I still need more time to know her. However, if I were to marry anyone, it will be her. Why? The reason is...I LOVE HER.
With blessings from Allah, this will definitely end in a wedlock one day. It is a matter of time.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Questionable Love?
Have you ever wondered whether your love relationship with your partner is greater than others? Have you ever compared it to other couples and wondered your relationship is better or at least the same as theirs? Apparently, maybe not. Somehow or rather these questions struck my mind last night when I met Frodo and his new girlfriend in town.
In fact this is the insanely crazy part of Frodo, which I am amazed at times. He wants me to meet his girlfriend still after all his other friends had seen and known her. Perhaps this is the brotherly stuffs that all close brothers, want to do,especially when they are in love. To let their closes brothers meet their girlfriends and be happy for them. Indeed, I am. I am proud to say that I encourage Frodo to go ahead with this relationship when I sense that he is attracted to her. Of course, I will. He has never had a real girlfriend in his life before and looking at that situation at that particular time, it seems the right thing to do.
I was glad that it worked out pretty well between Nat (his girlfriend) and Frodo. They are now so much in love. Oh my, young love. They are so adorable together and seeing them together yesterday and getting to know the girl who makes the difference in Frodo's life makes me so happy. Nat talked to me and without a doubt we clicked. When Nat left the place on her bike (she's a biker), I told Frodo, that she is in love deeply with him and vice versa and he should be focus from now on to ensure that this dreamland of boy and girl relationship will turn into something concrete in time. One advice I gave him after that is this. Loving a woman is a feeling whereby it will complete you as a man in due time. Loving is not enough to prolong the relationship. It is stability in the end. He seems to take my advice seriously and I believe Frodo will find a job in 6 months time when he completed his National Service.
Well, one thing at a time though. Before I mentioned this, let me assure you that I am happy with Frodo and his girlfriend but...I am pretty sad about it when I compared it with my relationship with my girlfriend. Everything was perfect yesterday. We met, kissed, cuddled,embraced each other's warmth (I was so cold in the theater yesterday watching Apocalypto!) and was very intimately in love. However, is that enough? Do I have something like what others have? Is the feeling concrete? Is this real or it is just in the making? Do I need more time? SPG told me two days ago that I will have to wait a little more time than just a year or so before I can think of going to the next step. I guess we both always had this curse of doubting our partners in life since then. Maybe it is just me. I even joked with her that if she were to ever marry or elope, she have to invite me for the wedding as I will like to witness the breaking of the curse that she had for all this time. Oh my, only Allah knows.
I do not know whether my love for Annie is pure and great as what Frodo has with Nat or even as SPG with Genie or even as other couples that I have known in my life. This feelings that I have right now with her is being tested again from now and than. It saddens me when I have to go through many obstacles to meet the right one for me. It saddens me when I have to ensure my love for her is genuine too. I guess it will take time.
Loving a woman is not only a matter of saying " I love you." or "Yo Tequeiro" to one another. It has to be sincere and it has to be something whereby you can prove it. I know I love her but I do not know whether it is as pure as what Frodo and others has with their girlfriends. It is questionable for Max Muchacho......O Allah, please guide me.
In fact this is the insanely crazy part of Frodo, which I am amazed at times. He wants me to meet his girlfriend still after all his other friends had seen and known her. Perhaps this is the brotherly stuffs that all close brothers, want to do,especially when they are in love. To let their closes brothers meet their girlfriends and be happy for them. Indeed, I am. I am proud to say that I encourage Frodo to go ahead with this relationship when I sense that he is attracted to her. Of course, I will. He has never had a real girlfriend in his life before and looking at that situation at that particular time, it seems the right thing to do.
I was glad that it worked out pretty well between Nat (his girlfriend) and Frodo. They are now so much in love. Oh my, young love. They are so adorable together and seeing them together yesterday and getting to know the girl who makes the difference in Frodo's life makes me so happy. Nat talked to me and without a doubt we clicked. When Nat left the place on her bike (she's a biker), I told Frodo, that she is in love deeply with him and vice versa and he should be focus from now on to ensure that this dreamland of boy and girl relationship will turn into something concrete in time. One advice I gave him after that is this. Loving a woman is a feeling whereby it will complete you as a man in due time. Loving is not enough to prolong the relationship. It is stability in the end. He seems to take my advice seriously and I believe Frodo will find a job in 6 months time when he completed his National Service.
Well, one thing at a time though. Before I mentioned this, let me assure you that I am happy with Frodo and his girlfriend but...I am pretty sad about it when I compared it with my relationship with my girlfriend. Everything was perfect yesterday. We met, kissed, cuddled,embraced each other's warmth (I was so cold in the theater yesterday watching Apocalypto!) and was very intimately in love. However, is that enough? Do I have something like what others have? Is the feeling concrete? Is this real or it is just in the making? Do I need more time? SPG told me two days ago that I will have to wait a little more time than just a year or so before I can think of going to the next step. I guess we both always had this curse of doubting our partners in life since then. Maybe it is just me. I even joked with her that if she were to ever marry or elope, she have to invite me for the wedding as I will like to witness the breaking of the curse that she had for all this time. Oh my, only Allah knows.
I do not know whether my love for Annie is pure and great as what Frodo has with Nat or even as SPG with Genie or even as other couples that I have known in my life. This feelings that I have right now with her is being tested again from now and than. It saddens me when I have to go through many obstacles to meet the right one for me. It saddens me when I have to ensure my love for her is genuine too. I guess it will take time.
Loving a woman is not only a matter of saying " I love you." or "Yo Tequeiro" to one another. It has to be sincere and it has to be something whereby you can prove it. I know I love her but I do not know whether it is as pure as what Frodo and others has with their girlfriends. It is questionable for Max Muchacho......O Allah, please guide me.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Love and What is Next?
Oh well..I am in love..finally. There are so many things that you can venture when you are in love with a woman. Sometimes, I wonder what they are when I am single. However, this proves that, it has been so long since I have a real girlfriend in life.
Many friends have adviced me on why do I have to lead a life full of emptiness and confusion though I have been very happy with what I have got in life. Let's do a simple review on how the life of Max Muchacho used to be before I meet Anne.
I was a very sociable person. I did salsa once and party always with my buddies for almost 7 years of my life since I completed my National Service. The people that I met can be either excruciating or exciting. The lovers that I met are either going astray or rather painful especially when I knew that the relationship cannot blossom further for the rest of my life. I worked hard, travelled hard, made numerous friends, listen and enjoyed the very best of music which are beyond my wildest dreams when I was a child and I did the normal routine things that any Singaporean will do on normal days, which is, shopping and watching movies.
On the other hand, when I think of it, I kind of have a fulfilled life with the love I get from families and friends. I was quite contented with everything but there are two things in life that I hate to face annually. That should be Hari Raya and my Birthday. As I had mentioned before, I was happy but I was aimless. I had no girlfriends but many platonic relationship with ladies from all around. I began to realize that something is missing in life. This is further mentioned by my young niece who is around 8 years old by now. She told me during Eid last year something that shook my head all around. She asked me why I did not have a girlfriend and why I am not interested in getting a wife. Amazing isn't it? Children nowadays are so brilliant that they sometimes seems to know what is best for their older families. I always believed in that. I told her that my girlfriend is around and it is just that she is waiting for me somewhere. I guessed you will know what is her next question after that. She asked me why didn't she come and visit me. And the list goes on for a kid who is always inquisitive and curious for something they do not understand yet.
When I met Anne, the world seems brighter to me. She lighted up my life. I felt my fire burning and my life reborn into a world of many thrills and adventure. I do not know what or how this comes about but I guess this is what love is all about. It comes in the strangest manner to anyone. Our relationship is still in its premature stage but I can assure you, we will surpass the maturity stage at any time. We still have to find out more things about each other and keep on figuring out on our characters and credentials before any new things may happen. Any relationship will take time to blossom. I have to take more time on this.
However, we shall see how it goes. InsyaAllah
Many friends have adviced me on why do I have to lead a life full of emptiness and confusion though I have been very happy with what I have got in life. Let's do a simple review on how the life of Max Muchacho used to be before I meet Anne.
I was a very sociable person. I did salsa once and party always with my buddies for almost 7 years of my life since I completed my National Service. The people that I met can be either excruciating or exciting. The lovers that I met are either going astray or rather painful especially when I knew that the relationship cannot blossom further for the rest of my life. I worked hard, travelled hard, made numerous friends, listen and enjoyed the very best of music which are beyond my wildest dreams when I was a child and I did the normal routine things that any Singaporean will do on normal days, which is, shopping and watching movies.
On the other hand, when I think of it, I kind of have a fulfilled life with the love I get from families and friends. I was quite contented with everything but there are two things in life that I hate to face annually. That should be Hari Raya and my Birthday. As I had mentioned before, I was happy but I was aimless. I had no girlfriends but many platonic relationship with ladies from all around. I began to realize that something is missing in life. This is further mentioned by my young niece who is around 8 years old by now. She told me during Eid last year something that shook my head all around. She asked me why I did not have a girlfriend and why I am not interested in getting a wife. Amazing isn't it? Children nowadays are so brilliant that they sometimes seems to know what is best for their older families. I always believed in that. I told her that my girlfriend is around and it is just that she is waiting for me somewhere. I guessed you will know what is her next question after that. She asked me why didn't she come and visit me. And the list goes on for a kid who is always inquisitive and curious for something they do not understand yet.
When I met Anne, the world seems brighter to me. She lighted up my life. I felt my fire burning and my life reborn into a world of many thrills and adventure. I do not know what or how this comes about but I guess this is what love is all about. It comes in the strangest manner to anyone. Our relationship is still in its premature stage but I can assure you, we will surpass the maturity stage at any time. We still have to find out more things about each other and keep on figuring out on our characters and credentials before any new things may happen. Any relationship will take time to blossom. I have to take more time on this.
However, we shall see how it goes. InsyaAllah
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Keranamu Kekasih..For you, my love..
Dear Love,
You are forever the meaning of my life. This time I have been waiting for so long. Only your touch settle my misses. Love, this is where I am giving it to you, my soul, my devotion and my dedication. My Love is for you always for the sake of being together with you on your soul, just for you...
The brightness of light coming from your eyes are just like the beauty of your feelings. I know we will sure meet always, meeting eyes to eyes, eradicating my longing for you.
Love, this is where I tell you...my love, my soul and my affections to you. My love is for you so as to be together, in front of you, love and this is for you.
Love, this is where I will make our curse to end. Our gift from God to meet. Darling, for you, I will unite it. The misses and the loving. The longing for love, we will solemnly...uphold the blessings given from Allah..forever...May Allah bless us together....
From your love, Max Muchacho
P.S Yes...i met Mrs Max...YES! Alhamdulilah..
You are forever the meaning of my life. This time I have been waiting for so long. Only your touch settle my misses. Love, this is where I am giving it to you, my soul, my devotion and my dedication. My Love is for you always for the sake of being together with you on your soul, just for you...
The brightness of light coming from your eyes are just like the beauty of your feelings. I know we will sure meet always, meeting eyes to eyes, eradicating my longing for you.
Love, this is where I tell you...my love, my soul and my affections to you. My love is for you so as to be together, in front of you, love and this is for you.
Love, this is where I will make our curse to end. Our gift from God to meet. Darling, for you, I will unite it. The misses and the loving. The longing for love, we will solemnly...uphold the blessings given from Allah..forever...May Allah bless us together....
From your love, Max Muchacho
P.S Yes...i met Mrs Max...YES! Alhamdulilah..
Friday, January 12, 2007
The Invitation Of Love
I have nearly 13 more hours to go before I make my final decision to end my bachelorhood. Yes, I have decided to do something to end my misery. I had finally realized how much I am in love with Anne.
Tommorow will be the day I am going to ask her to move on with me on another level of relationship. I am confident this will happen well but still, I am nervous but I will pray for the best. The problem was actually about her. The solution is actually her. Oh my...May Allah help me in the acceptance by her of me being her boyfriend.
Ok I shall not talk more in this. We will see how it goes tommorow. Wish me luck
Tommorow will be the day I am going to ask her to move on with me on another level of relationship. I am confident this will happen well but still, I am nervous but I will pray for the best. The problem was actually about her. The solution is actually her. Oh my...May Allah help me in the acceptance by her of me being her boyfriend.
Ok I shall not talk more in this. We will see how it goes tommorow. Wish me luck
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Di Puncak Tertinggi - At The Highest Peak
I was listening to the Puteri Gunung Ledang Musical CD song, known as "Di Puncak Tertinggi - At The Highest Peak" and I am very much hypnotized by it as it covers some mystical Javanese Traditional Rythms. Why do I do this now? Actually, I have gone through a state of depression for this past one week. Why is that so? I shall tell you later part in the blog.
Before I start my sad story, I will introduce some lyrics from the song. Parts of the Lyrics Chorus, mentioned these beautiful word. They are as follows :
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Mata Temu Mata
Berguguran Bicara
Kata demi kata
Merubah tutur jadi rasa
Hanya Keasyikan pada kewujudannya
NAfas dan nadi bak terhenti
Petermuan ini kian terasa bagai bererti...
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Tak Pernah kurasa
Sentuhan luar biasa
bagai dalam mimpi
atau seakan telah terjadi
aku yang terpisah
kembali bersatu jiwa
bagai telah diijabkabulkan
pertemuan ini
apakah berakhir di syurga....
which means,
When eyes meet the eyes
It devastates the conversation,
Word after words,
change the conversation to feelings,
Only Concentration to her presence,
Breathing and nerves never stopped running
The meeting is beginning to be of some meaning...
----
----
Never have I felt
The mysterious touch
its like a dream
or has it happened already
I am the one that was separated
coming back united in one soul together
its like being married
This meeting, will it end in heaven?
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What lovely words, I may say always. These are the words of those who are in love. Yes, and that is the thing that is bugging me now. The story started after I met a very patient, sincere and beautiful lady known as Anne. She opens up my heart which was concealed for a long time ever since I broke off my engagement three years ago.
I met her through online. Yes, I know some of you do not believe in internet dating but hey, love comes in a mysterious manners. It has finally arrived in the electronic world for me. I give it a shot. I met her. I went on for two dates after knowing her for about two months. All is fine but there is this dark secret within me that fear commitment after all these time. The thought of not making through to marriage strikes worries in my heart. Questions like, " is she the one? , is she going to be my wife? , does she love me truly? , will she wait for me? and the best....do I love her that much to be her husband? ".
It was hell...The outcome made me into a person with insomnia. I cannot sleep at night. I stayed awake throught the night and kept thinking and searching my feelings thoroughly. I have to settle this quickly before I jump into this relationship. The best thing about her is that she is very patient with me. She spend my birthday by treating me to a birthday dinner treat and gave me a present. It was so nice of her. All was well.
New Year's eve arrived. Frodo's got a girlfriend on this day and it was a whole new world for him. He is deeply in love with the girlfriend. The funny thing about this is that I got to know Anne roughly during the same period as Frodo and if I were to go on with Anne, it will be a dream come true. Both brothers getting girlfriends at the same timing. Now what are the odds of that?
Of course, this will be a fairy tale if it end up that way. I found many things about Anne that still triggers my doubt on her. She still is affected by her ex boyfriend who dumped her 4 years ago in a 4 months relationship. She confessed to me on that. I went beserk again. Imagine, when I was about to go into this relationship, almost the time Frodo got a girlfriend, I was repelled by her shocking news. What happens to Max Muchacho after that?
Max Muchacho went into a depression state. I had not slept for three days straight in a row at that time. I talked to many friends about my confusion but I could not help wondering how I landed up like this. I have always been the friend or brother that have been helping people. When Frodo got a girlfriend and others moving on with their lives, I was left with myself to deal with. The vision of myself strike down so hard on me especially when I realized that I had gone through a lot lately. A lot of problems had gone through in my life and the idea of myself in existence is a total shame. I cried continuously. A 33 year old man crying. That is a joke right? It happened. In view of that, I have problems in handling it and come to an extent I make several mistakes in hurting some friends feelings for making wild accussations of their betrayal to my friendship and so forth. These are all uncontrollable issues that I was going through during my depression. Why do I have to react that way? Of course, that is because no one can help me as how I help others sincerely. No one actually know me. Yes, there are best buddies like, dancer, sexy mama, my younger brother Frodo, Mar, Raj and many more to give me a listening ear to all my problems.
If only life is that simple. Their advice are great. Good advices for me to heed. However the sadness still creeps up in my heart. Seeing people in love makes me hate my life further. I questioned God on why is "He" punishing me in this way, deviating me from ever experiencing any real love? I swore to myself many times, hitting my head to ease my suffering, cursed myself and even felt like jumping down but I am not that crazy. I cant help it if the thought came by. Thank God for my sanity, I did not follow it.
Now...I have to move on. All of my friends are attached. I am alone. Anne is still taking to me as friends. We are still trying to figure out our feelings for each other. That is yet to be determined till further notice. I recovered quickly with the help of Dancer and Raj. They opened up my mindset on thinking of my happiness and letting go of my sadness. They told me to start thinking of my welfare and do that first before putting everyone's welfare first. Perhaps this is what God wants me to do now. I cannot be possibly start thinking for Frodo's life always especially though he is my younger brother. He already has a girlfriend and he have to step on his two feet from now on. I cannot start thinking of Dancer of his financial crisis or Raj on his current girlfriend issues or sexy mama on her life and many more. I have to think of myself from now onwards. I am scared that all these people will just forget about me though. What will ever happen to me by than? An old man working and in the end putting my wealth in a hospital to take care of when I grow old and die there? Will God end my life now to end my sufferring? I guess God wants me to deal with this personal test deeply. I have no choice but to live.
I keep seeing the times I spend with my friends in the past. I hate to see it go away and wither away till I grow old. I see Frodo, moving on with his life and perhaps forgotten about me in the near future. I see Dancer migrating to other country and losing touch. I see Raj and Sexy Mama having their equal fare share of life. I fear that I will be left to rot with my wasted life. May Allah help me.
If God wants me to be alone..than be it. If God wants me to settle down, than be it.
We will see how this goes from now on. I have to concentrate on my studies too. May Allah bless me from now on. If I can handle this and be stronger than before, I will be indeed the strongest person in the whole planet. If God wills it.
Before I start my sad story, I will introduce some lyrics from the song. Parts of the Lyrics Chorus, mentioned these beautiful word. They are as follows :
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Mata Temu Mata
Berguguran Bicara
Kata demi kata
Merubah tutur jadi rasa
Hanya Keasyikan pada kewujudannya
NAfas dan nadi bak terhenti
Petermuan ini kian terasa bagai bererti...
---
---
Tak Pernah kurasa
Sentuhan luar biasa
bagai dalam mimpi
atau seakan telah terjadi
aku yang terpisah
kembali bersatu jiwa
bagai telah diijabkabulkan
pertemuan ini
apakah berakhir di syurga....
which means,
When eyes meet the eyes
It devastates the conversation,
Word after words,
change the conversation to feelings,
Only Concentration to her presence,
Breathing and nerves never stopped running
The meeting is beginning to be of some meaning...
----
----
Never have I felt
The mysterious touch
its like a dream
or has it happened already
I am the one that was separated
coming back united in one soul together
its like being married
This meeting, will it end in heaven?
----------------------------------------------------------------
What lovely words, I may say always. These are the words of those who are in love. Yes, and that is the thing that is bugging me now. The story started after I met a very patient, sincere and beautiful lady known as Anne. She opens up my heart which was concealed for a long time ever since I broke off my engagement three years ago.
I met her through online. Yes, I know some of you do not believe in internet dating but hey, love comes in a mysterious manners. It has finally arrived in the electronic world for me. I give it a shot. I met her. I went on for two dates after knowing her for about two months. All is fine but there is this dark secret within me that fear commitment after all these time. The thought of not making through to marriage strikes worries in my heart. Questions like, " is she the one? , is she going to be my wife? , does she love me truly? , will she wait for me? and the best....do I love her that much to be her husband? ".
It was hell...The outcome made me into a person with insomnia. I cannot sleep at night. I stayed awake throught the night and kept thinking and searching my feelings thoroughly. I have to settle this quickly before I jump into this relationship. The best thing about her is that she is very patient with me. She spend my birthday by treating me to a birthday dinner treat and gave me a present. It was so nice of her. All was well.
New Year's eve arrived. Frodo's got a girlfriend on this day and it was a whole new world for him. He is deeply in love with the girlfriend. The funny thing about this is that I got to know Anne roughly during the same period as Frodo and if I were to go on with Anne, it will be a dream come true. Both brothers getting girlfriends at the same timing. Now what are the odds of that?
Of course, this will be a fairy tale if it end up that way. I found many things about Anne that still triggers my doubt on her. She still is affected by her ex boyfriend who dumped her 4 years ago in a 4 months relationship. She confessed to me on that. I went beserk again. Imagine, when I was about to go into this relationship, almost the time Frodo got a girlfriend, I was repelled by her shocking news. What happens to Max Muchacho after that?
Max Muchacho went into a depression state. I had not slept for three days straight in a row at that time. I talked to many friends about my confusion but I could not help wondering how I landed up like this. I have always been the friend or brother that have been helping people. When Frodo got a girlfriend and others moving on with their lives, I was left with myself to deal with. The vision of myself strike down so hard on me especially when I realized that I had gone through a lot lately. A lot of problems had gone through in my life and the idea of myself in existence is a total shame. I cried continuously. A 33 year old man crying. That is a joke right? It happened. In view of that, I have problems in handling it and come to an extent I make several mistakes in hurting some friends feelings for making wild accussations of their betrayal to my friendship and so forth. These are all uncontrollable issues that I was going through during my depression. Why do I have to react that way? Of course, that is because no one can help me as how I help others sincerely. No one actually know me. Yes, there are best buddies like, dancer, sexy mama, my younger brother Frodo, Mar, Raj and many more to give me a listening ear to all my problems.
If only life is that simple. Their advice are great. Good advices for me to heed. However the sadness still creeps up in my heart. Seeing people in love makes me hate my life further. I questioned God on why is "He" punishing me in this way, deviating me from ever experiencing any real love? I swore to myself many times, hitting my head to ease my suffering, cursed myself and even felt like jumping down but I am not that crazy. I cant help it if the thought came by. Thank God for my sanity, I did not follow it.
Now...I have to move on. All of my friends are attached. I am alone. Anne is still taking to me as friends. We are still trying to figure out our feelings for each other. That is yet to be determined till further notice. I recovered quickly with the help of Dancer and Raj. They opened up my mindset on thinking of my happiness and letting go of my sadness. They told me to start thinking of my welfare and do that first before putting everyone's welfare first. Perhaps this is what God wants me to do now. I cannot be possibly start thinking for Frodo's life always especially though he is my younger brother. He already has a girlfriend and he have to step on his two feet from now on. I cannot start thinking of Dancer of his financial crisis or Raj on his current girlfriend issues or sexy mama on her life and many more. I have to think of myself from now onwards. I am scared that all these people will just forget about me though. What will ever happen to me by than? An old man working and in the end putting my wealth in a hospital to take care of when I grow old and die there? Will God end my life now to end my sufferring? I guess God wants me to deal with this personal test deeply. I have no choice but to live.
I keep seeing the times I spend with my friends in the past. I hate to see it go away and wither away till I grow old. I see Frodo, moving on with his life and perhaps forgotten about me in the near future. I see Dancer migrating to other country and losing touch. I see Raj and Sexy Mama having their equal fare share of life. I fear that I will be left to rot with my wasted life. May Allah help me.
If God wants me to be alone..than be it. If God wants me to settle down, than be it.
We will see how this goes from now on. I have to concentrate on my studies too. May Allah bless me from now on. If I can handle this and be stronger than before, I will be indeed the strongest person in the whole planet. If God wills it.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Broken Relations
This is a sensitive topic to discuss. However, I shall attempt to talk about it especially when I realized that there are many people who are not aware of it's realities. I am sure that most of us had gone through countless relationship before we find the right partner in life. Well, unfortunately, not everyone is lucky.
The idea of losing someone you love so much in life can be very degrading to anyone. Are we even impervious to fear that we tend to neglect the truth of the story? There are people in the world who have yet to overcome a certain type of trauma in their life. I can name a few, the post traumatic experiences of War, Natural Disaster and so forth but what can be devastating than losing someone whom you love to another person? I will always think that the latter costs lesser pain than the first but who am I to judge people who are going through a horrible experience as such?
We are not perfect. That is the symbolic nature of any human being. Let us talk about the topic on post traumatic experience of a break up. I have several experiences to relate to here but let us make it general. People fall in love when they find the chemistry within themselves easily. Oh well, it is always a good feeling to go "Ga Ga" over the opposite side and let yourself afloat on air many times when you go on dates with her or him. The relationship may take a while to endure. Some go on dates for as long as 8 years ever since school time. Oh dear, that is something I never did before and I got to give my thumbs up to them. Some even go on dates for four months until when something not right strike to their heart, they broke off.
Well, these idea seems easy and it looks like a typical soap opera movie in television. However, how are they handling it? I know some may take years to overcome their depression over the matter? Some, I heard, took a short period of time to move on. My concerns are more of those who are unable to move on after a break up. Hey, I have problems dealing with a break up too and that did not make me a superman in any way.
Just look at this in another point. Why do we need to suffer so much just to hang on to a past that is not meant to stay? Yes, the feelings are still strong, the memories are too fond to be forgotten and the experience of being together once was enticingly fantastic. Reality check. It is over. Get on with it. Ok here's a stupid theory that I think it will work for some but not all. Leave it a week or a month (maximum) to get over this. For the ladies and the men too, cry as much as you can if you still think that you love the other person. Than, find another partner and move on. If you are still single, go and party to the maximum. God is fair. I am sure there are better partners whom we will meet in due time which will end up in a wed-lock.
Even so, why do we need to ponder on something which is not worth thinking about? Do not let emotions handle your perceptions of the problem. Put it this way,whether it is the man's fault or the woman's fault, when a decision is made to part, we have to find our inner strength to move on. It is beserk. I understand and you are not alone. Everybody is going through that once in a while. Be optimistic. Life goes on.
For those who are suffering out of a relationship now, a personal advice from myself who had gone through it before, stop killing yourself by hanging to it. Move on. There will always be a blessing in disguise for every problem we face.
To conclude, everybody now may think that, I am just full of crap in writing such a blog. Hey, put it this way, I may be wrong but it is for the best. The one thing I learn about being in love and out of love is to keep on finding love though it may not happen permanently in your life. When we found one, treasure it, remember your priorities and enjoy life. Do not just discard what you have currently when you pursue your "love" because if it fumbled one day, you will have nothing to hook upon to. Only god knows. Adios.
The idea of losing someone you love so much in life can be very degrading to anyone. Are we even impervious to fear that we tend to neglect the truth of the story? There are people in the world who have yet to overcome a certain type of trauma in their life. I can name a few, the post traumatic experiences of War, Natural Disaster and so forth but what can be devastating than losing someone whom you love to another person? I will always think that the latter costs lesser pain than the first but who am I to judge people who are going through a horrible experience as such?
We are not perfect. That is the symbolic nature of any human being. Let us talk about the topic on post traumatic experience of a break up. I have several experiences to relate to here but let us make it general. People fall in love when they find the chemistry within themselves easily. Oh well, it is always a good feeling to go "Ga Ga" over the opposite side and let yourself afloat on air many times when you go on dates with her or him. The relationship may take a while to endure. Some go on dates for as long as 8 years ever since school time. Oh dear, that is something I never did before and I got to give my thumbs up to them. Some even go on dates for four months until when something not right strike to their heart, they broke off.
Well, these idea seems easy and it looks like a typical soap opera movie in television. However, how are they handling it? I know some may take years to overcome their depression over the matter? Some, I heard, took a short period of time to move on. My concerns are more of those who are unable to move on after a break up. Hey, I have problems dealing with a break up too and that did not make me a superman in any way.
Just look at this in another point. Why do we need to suffer so much just to hang on to a past that is not meant to stay? Yes, the feelings are still strong, the memories are too fond to be forgotten and the experience of being together once was enticingly fantastic. Reality check. It is over. Get on with it. Ok here's a stupid theory that I think it will work for some but not all. Leave it a week or a month (maximum) to get over this. For the ladies and the men too, cry as much as you can if you still think that you love the other person. Than, find another partner and move on. If you are still single, go and party to the maximum. God is fair. I am sure there are better partners whom we will meet in due time which will end up in a wed-lock.
Even so, why do we need to ponder on something which is not worth thinking about? Do not let emotions handle your perceptions of the problem. Put it this way,whether it is the man's fault or the woman's fault, when a decision is made to part, we have to find our inner strength to move on. It is beserk. I understand and you are not alone. Everybody is going through that once in a while. Be optimistic. Life goes on.
For those who are suffering out of a relationship now, a personal advice from myself who had gone through it before, stop killing yourself by hanging to it. Move on. There will always be a blessing in disguise for every problem we face.
To conclude, everybody now may think that, I am just full of crap in writing such a blog. Hey, put it this way, I may be wrong but it is for the best. The one thing I learn about being in love and out of love is to keep on finding love though it may not happen permanently in your life. When we found one, treasure it, remember your priorities and enjoy life. Do not just discard what you have currently when you pursue your "love" because if it fumbled one day, you will have nothing to hook upon to. Only god knows. Adios.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Supplication To The Almighty
This is a song from Sami Yusuf..It is a good supplication prayers for those who are in desperate need for guidance. May Allah bless us all..
" Allahumma SalliAllah Saiyidina Muhammadiminnabiyil ummiyyi wa Allah Allihii Wasabbihii Wassallim..
Oh My Lord, my sins are like the highest mountains. My Good Deeds are very few. They are like a small pebble..I turn to you..My heart full of shame..My eyes full of tears..Bestow your forgiveness and mercy upon me.
Ya Allah. Send your peace and blessings on the Final Prophet and his family and companion and those who follow him. "
May Allah make me choose the best path for my life..
" Allahumma SalliAllah Saiyidina Muhammadiminnabiyil ummiyyi wa Allah Allihii Wasabbihii Wassallim..
Oh My Lord, my sins are like the highest mountains. My Good Deeds are very few. They are like a small pebble..I turn to you..My heart full of shame..My eyes full of tears..Bestow your forgiveness and mercy upon me.
Ya Allah. Send your peace and blessings on the Final Prophet and his family and companion and those who follow him. "
May Allah make me choose the best path for my life..
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